Grandma- Last Goodbye!

It has been a tough couple of weeks that my family had gone through or still going through since the death of my grandma; a sudden death,  that the family were not expecting . Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un. For her, this was exactly her wish to die without troubling anyone or lying as a burden for her family. It just took a few seconds for her to leave us. May Allah bestow his mercy upon her soul and grant her Jannat al Firdaus. Aameen!

It is the worst feeling I've ever experienced. I loved her so much that I couldn't believe my ears when I heard this news. Still can't believe. Last year while we were about to leave after vacation, she hugged me tightly, went on crying while worrying whether she could see us anymore. I told her we would never allow you to go before Noora's (my daughter who is 10) wedding. You have lot more to witness. We never ever expected this.

She was a great cook and my tutor. She was the first one to teach me to make fish curry and biriyani. Those were the days when I was trying to settle myself all alone in my house with my toddler, who was just 3 months then and I had no experience in cooking. My grandma used to come every week with a maid to help me clean my house. She gave her instructions and helped me sort out my stuffs. Once, when I wanted to cook biriyani, she helped me with the procedures when she had never tasted or cooked biriyani in her entire life. She always said that she hated it since her childhood and for some reason she never tasted it. But that was one of the best biriyanis I've ever made.

The grief becomes unbearable when comes the thought of not seeing her again. The warmth, the love and care is no more available. How I regret not being able to say a last goodbye. I wish I had known her time was coming. Love you Gradma!! You truly were special! Those fond memories will  be with us all our life!

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